I have to admit
.....I got a little overwhelmed yesterday.
It was a melancholy day, anyway, rainy and 50 degrees all day long. I had planned to stay inside the whole day, which sometimes is a welcome respite....but yesterday, getting out and about would have been glorious.
I had one of my "bad" days pregnancy-wise, and Gardner had one of his irritable days. I'm still not sure what causes those....I understand we can all have "our days." I don't know whether it's because he's an hour short on sleep, whether it's a molar pushing through, or whether it's just that he gets bored and stir-crazy (like me sometimes). Either way, it's not fun for either of us.
I have been having weird headaches with this pregnancy, which I didn't have the first time. The only thing that makes them "go away" is a nap (well, not go away entirely, but it lets me escape them for 45 minutes or however long I snooze). I was ten seconds away from drifting off yesterday afternoon when Gardner awoke prematurely from his nap....after only 50 minutes of naptime.
Sometimes moments like these make a mommy want to throw her hands up in exaperation and proclaim, "I can't do it! I just can't do it!" Survival takes precedence over conquering the day. Each hour seems like six. I am thankful these days don't happen too often, but it would make me a liar if I said that they didn't occur at all.
Before long, God turned the day around. Gardner became pleasant, and I was able to read to him. He played by himself for an hour, giving me prep time for supper. Supper, too, was excellent....one of those meals when all the dishes turn out to be winners, and you are flooded with compliments from your wonderful husband. Ken was in a great mood, and we had a nice, relaxing evening together.
I learned that there's always a silver lining. I felt a slight chastisement from the Lord when I had that spontaneous little urge to run out of the house screaming into the streets, yanking out my hair. He implored me to rest in Him. I did. And what a payoff.
So, there are "those days." But the Lord gives us great days more often that cancel out all of the others....days like today when the sun is shining and all is smiling. He is so good.
It was a melancholy day, anyway, rainy and 50 degrees all day long. I had planned to stay inside the whole day, which sometimes is a welcome respite....but yesterday, getting out and about would have been glorious.
I had one of my "bad" days pregnancy-wise, and Gardner had one of his irritable days. I'm still not sure what causes those....I understand we can all have "our days." I don't know whether it's because he's an hour short on sleep, whether it's a molar pushing through, or whether it's just that he gets bored and stir-crazy (like me sometimes). Either way, it's not fun for either of us.
I have been having weird headaches with this pregnancy, which I didn't have the first time. The only thing that makes them "go away" is a nap (well, not go away entirely, but it lets me escape them for 45 minutes or however long I snooze). I was ten seconds away from drifting off yesterday afternoon when Gardner awoke prematurely from his nap....after only 50 minutes of naptime.
Sometimes moments like these make a mommy want to throw her hands up in exaperation and proclaim, "I can't do it! I just can't do it!" Survival takes precedence over conquering the day. Each hour seems like six. I am thankful these days don't happen too often, but it would make me a liar if I said that they didn't occur at all.
Before long, God turned the day around. Gardner became pleasant, and I was able to read to him. He played by himself for an hour, giving me prep time for supper. Supper, too, was excellent....one of those meals when all the dishes turn out to be winners, and you are flooded with compliments from your wonderful husband. Ken was in a great mood, and we had a nice, relaxing evening together.
I learned that there's always a silver lining. I felt a slight chastisement from the Lord when I had that spontaneous little urge to run out of the house screaming into the streets, yanking out my hair. He implored me to rest in Him. I did. And what a payoff.
So, there are "those days." But the Lord gives us great days more often that cancel out all of the others....days like today when the sun is shining and all is smiling. He is so good.
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