Sometimes I realize....
....how many "firsts" for Gardner (and our soon-to-be-here baby) rest on my shoulders. It is not exhausting to think about....quite the contrary. It is unbelievably exciting.
Sometimes I sit and think about all of the things that Gardner will do for the first time, all because of Ken and I. It's quite mind-boggling:
- He will learn animal names for the first time (he's already going down that road)
- He will learn his ABCs and how to count to 100
- He will learn his colors and shapes
- He will have his first day of preschool, based on the school we choose for him
- He will have his first dentist visit
- He will see Disney World for the first time
- He will be potty-trained
- He will learn how to ride a bike
- He will learn how to write his own name
The list could go on and on and on.
Most importantly, the first concept he has of God will be dependent on how we present Him. What an awesome, awesome responsibility and privilege. We may even be able to be the ones who kneel down beside him and guide him as he accepts Jesus into his heart. I cannot imagine that joy that must have gone through my parents' hearts when they were able to do this with me when I was merely six. Ken and I pray for this day every single night with Gardner, whenever that day may be.
Whoever said that parenting was easy was wrong....it isn't easy, and it isn't light. It is all-encompassing, and it is the greatest responsibility I've been faced with yet (may ever be faced with). As scary as it can be sometimes when all of these realizations hit, I know where my strength comes from. I can count every teaching moment as joy, instead of an uncertain hurdle. I am right where I know God wants me to be, and it's glorious.
Sometimes I sit and think about all of the things that Gardner will do for the first time, all because of Ken and I. It's quite mind-boggling:
- He will learn animal names for the first time (he's already going down that road)
- He will learn his ABCs and how to count to 100
- He will learn his colors and shapes
- He will have his first day of preschool, based on the school we choose for him
- He will have his first dentist visit
- He will see Disney World for the first time
- He will be potty-trained
- He will learn how to ride a bike
- He will learn how to write his own name
The list could go on and on and on.
Most importantly, the first concept he has of God will be dependent on how we present Him. What an awesome, awesome responsibility and privilege. We may even be able to be the ones who kneel down beside him and guide him as he accepts Jesus into his heart. I cannot imagine that joy that must have gone through my parents' hearts when they were able to do this with me when I was merely six. Ken and I pray for this day every single night with Gardner, whenever that day may be.
Whoever said that parenting was easy was wrong....it isn't easy, and it isn't light. It is all-encompassing, and it is the greatest responsibility I've been faced with yet (may ever be faced with). As scary as it can be sometimes when all of these realizations hit, I know where my strength comes from. I can count every teaching moment as joy, instead of an uncertain hurdle. I am right where I know God wants me to be, and it's glorious.
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